My heart has never learned

To most slowly

It jumps

Crashes

Changes directions

With no warning

Im moments im certain

Then losing control

Then steady

For feelings 

I dont see coming

They say it dramatic

But dont understand

But thats how my heart talks

Sudden shifts

Sharp turns

In intensity that refuses

To be weighed

Im trying to tame it

To teach it to be calm

To stay still

But it was born

For moving fast

For feeling deeply

To love like its a crash

And take break like a confession

Its my whiplash heart

Messy,

Reckless

alive

– E. J.