Sometimes it’ll start off really quietly 

That you don't even realize the change

There’s a small doubt 

The strange feeling starting to appear

Moments when things don't add up

But you’ll brush it off

Because you want to believe thats its true

Tricky, knowing the difference 

Between what they say and what they did

Stuck being confused 

Being told one thing and then told it wasn't true

What's the difference really?

Your holding onto what you think is true

But their voice gets louder

Until your thoughts aren't your thoughts anymore

Questioning your memory

Your reactions

The instincts that you have

Deep down knowing your were right all along

They had their fingers crossed

You'd remember the late calls, the late texts

Signs your kept brushing off

People trying to warn you about what they were doing

And now your wishing you listened

The signs were clear

Weren't hidden

Just your hope that was softened

Your say to yourself there busy

Tired, maybe

Overwhelmed 

Anything but not telling the truth

But looking at the late night texts

Waiting for you to notice

Now the gas has been lit

Now your mind is spinning

Let make you feel like 

your the most important person in the world

Until your not

This is the part that cuts the deepest 

The way they'll lift you up

Dropping you without a warning 

Making you feel like you were the one chose

But they made you feel invisible 

In the next breathes you take

Now your seeing there pattern

There warmth came with conditions

The affection disappeared when you wanted it the most

Your confusing growing everytime

Trying to make sense of all the excuses 

Inside that noise

A part of you is starting to wake

The one who remember who you are

Before they twisted your reality

Before they blurred your lines

Before you doubted your truth

This part of you is still here

Steady, 

Quiet

Waiting for you to see it again.

– E. J.